Seasons Change Before We’re Ready
Just as autumn wanes and winter draws near, so do the seasons of our lives ebb and flow. Debra Nystrom, Professor of Creative Writing in the Department of English in the College and Graduate School of Arts & Sciences at the University of Virginia, gives us the poem, “Seasons Change Before We’re Ready.”
SEASONS CHANGE BEFORE WE’RE READY
though all along without noticing we’ve witnessed
……………………….the light’s weakening
……………….felt a chill on our skin at dusk after days still
………warm with trees’ sudden flames the flickering I’d wakened to thinking
……………………………….her voice passed unseen like smoke
………………………………………..outside the window again
or from the attic the smoke we boxed-in
……………………….with scalloped-edged black-and-white photographs
……………….saved from the house that burned the fall after she died
………pictures not looked through since
……………………………….still holding the smell of ash from the season she vanished
………………………………………..none of these are the words that woke me
then drifted back to the dark her voice lives inside
……………………….and her face the first I came to know as face
……………….returned to shadows wavering too dim to distinguish
………though I hear their sounds from this distance
……………………………….as if listening underwater
………………………………………..to waves lifting above one after another
deep blue ivory-crested under moonlight crossed
……………………….by clouds rippling in wind fitful
……………….before I woke there were words
………but I only hear echoes weaving now like the ribbons
……………………………….she braided in my hair sometimes
………………………………………..bits of clarity I can’t make out anymore
listening I wasn’t alone
……………………….if I close my eyes will the words come back to answer
……………….from the dark water where shadows
………like hands motion far off
……………………………….waving me toward them
………………………………………..if I sleep will they come closer
-Debra Nystrom,
first published in Blackbird